Below are the 4 most recent journal entries recorded in jamrd's LiveJournal:

Saturday, September 3rd, 2005
3:00 pm	So Close Well, it is september and it is just a few days away from Britian educational time to begin again and I 'm worried, I've applied for an animation course but heard nothing back and it concerns me as its this course or the safty net, back to my old college :P Anyway, its to do with illurstration and basically what I should have been doing 2 years ago but I was young and unaware so here I am going for it to the max ;) I really hope I'm on the course, 2 more years at Buxton is harsh to say the least :P Current Mood: optimistic Current Music: Sydrome-Tecnic 9" mix - Mortal Kombat (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Saturday, August 13th, 2005
9:05 pm	Dman it ... Well, this is a different turn of events, like most, some of these entries are about tormile and pain but mine is a mis-understanding. Louise, she's was my girl for around 2 weeks and as most that have read my journal in the past will understand, I really longed to say I loved her, I never will. She dumped today in a strange way that made me think harder about a break up than maybe most guys should... "james i feel a bitch4doin this bt i saw bobie2day and iv realised im nt ready2get bac in2tht kinda thing. thawt i was ready bt obviously nt. im so sory bt i want us 2stay realy close friends!its nt u at al its al me and my crazy mind. i jst need2b single. il b in manchestr on sunday so il cum cu at wrk" Here is the text that was sent, now after reading I had to go through it twice for it to really register but after it did all I said was what did I do soo wrong? Well it seems as though it wasn't me right? Well no, it must have been me, boring her, but so fast beats the current record, anyway, it makes reference to Bobbie. Well in my eyes, if it took a single meeting to turn her off then I was doomed from day one of likeing her, I really do like her and its shit that someone like this has such an influence over her. The second thing is close to the ending... "its nt u at al its al me" This is a horrible way to put it, I know Louise well enough to understand that this is a nasty way to say I'm not interested, so it seems as though she has either gone to Bobbie again or just got bored of me. I'll get over this and I hope this was all worth it for you Louise, I'm gutted and have already begun the nasty period of getting over you, hope you find that nice boy (as Pen would put it) that your after, I'm sorry Louise, I really am :( Current Mood: rejected Current Music: Sod all (13 Comments |Comment on this)
Sunday, July 31st, 2005
9:50 pm	Going Home I'm on my final few hours now after taking an extra week in Portsmouth but it is time to come home to Manchester. I have missed home alot for different reasons, mainly the obvious ones, Louise, my bed and my own room! So today I sat in and did sod all to make my mark on my mums house. I've enjoyed my time down here and have managed to do things I never really saw myself doing, even moshed for the first time :D I was in this club called Indigo, now its nothing hardcore but it was a glimpse of the world I want to be included in, and I loved it! I was flirted with and moshed against all night! Anyway, it will be back to the old routine at home but I have a few changes planned so that things will be different. I have funnily enough missed work and the annoying pain in the arse that is Mike but Louise will be there and you can guarentee we will have a laf :D I've missed my friends too, but I can already tell that they are planning something for when I get back He He. Well I'll leave ot there, not too much else to say so to stop I'll end it ;) Current Mood: happy Current Music: Nothing, can't be bothered (1 Comment |Comment on this)
3:29 am	Louise Today has been a good day, although slow from the begining it has been very good, well most of it. I have found out about this place from my grilfriend Louise or to all you guys, funky_lou. I was reading alot of her stuff when I came across some of the most harsh abuse I've seen in a while, real old school techniques of just pure abuse, and it sparked me off. I'm not usually emotional about anything, but Louise is soo important to me that I feel gutted I wasn't there to help her and clear the waters of some of the crap that was said about her. Ah well, I'm much calmer now but I felt so powerless to do anything about it but I left something for whoever this Nic is... The rest of the day as I said has been amazing, talked to a few new people online and have had a relaxing day at home. I am very happy Louise is back from Portugal, now all I need to do is get back to Manchester. I am excited as I haven't seen her for a month and I imagine us being together for sometime, I'm so lucky to have her. Well that will do for now, its not my best of abilities, multi tasking . . . Will see how this grows over time. Current Mood: calm Current Music: Nothing... too late (1 Comment |Comment on this)